It's been too long!

I've come to a realization that I cannot keep this thing updated. It's funny because I love reading everyone else's blog and I'm disappointed if they are not updated, yet I never update mine. I am going to try to get better at updating mine more often. My life is just crazy right now. I'm working full time and going to grad school part time. I didn't realize how hard it would be to balance my life with work, school, my fiance, and my family. When I was in college it didn't seem so hard. Probably because I didn't have a full time job and I didn't live with my fiance. Now when I get home from work I'm exhausted. I don't want to cook dinner, I don't want to do anything. It sucks because that means we go out to dinner a lot more often than I think we should. Mainly because I'm trying to lose weight, and I want to save money to buy a house. The weight thing is a big issue. I bought an elliptical machine thinking I would get up when Rod gets up and work out while he was getting ready for work. Since I've had the machine I have only gotten up 3 or 4 times in the morning to work out. It's frustrating because I know I want to lose the weight yet I sabotage myself at every point. I need to learn to give up the things I love to eat and try to eat a lot healthier. I'm going to try really hard to eat healthy. My dad now has to eat really healthy because of some health problems. My mom is going out of town tomorrow so I'm gong to probably stay with my dad some nights and I can work on eating healthy when I'm with him. It's hard being with Rod because he can eat anything and not really gain any weight. I mean he really hasn't gained much weight since college. I hate it! I need to learn that even if unhealthy food is in the house, that doesn't mean I have to eat it. For awhile I was really good at eating fruits and vegetables and baked chicken and fish, then everything went down hill when I start grad school. Well, no more. I'm really going to get better! (Check back in a week and I'll let you know how I'm doing) Ok so the other thing is I'm really close to my family, but I don't get to spend as much time with them as I would like. I feel bad because when we go over to my parents' house I always feel as if Rod is bored. He always seems to be in a bad mood. He has gotten closer with my family over the years, but I still feel something bugs him. I know part of it has to do with the fact that he could think of things he could be getting done around the apartment rather than sitting around at my parents' house. I guess another option would be me visiting them myself. I was at my parents' this week a lot. We went for the 4th of July, but my dad was in the hospital so we just hung around the house in case family was trying to find out what was going on. Then I stayed at their house on Wednesday to help my mom. I sat with my dad at the hospital for an hour on Wednesday night and then I went to the gym with my mom. I was going to make her dinner when we got home so she wouldn't have to think about it, but she wanted to cook. She did an excellent job too! It was this chicken and roasted vegetables. I really enjoy my mom's cooking. She likes to experiment with a lot of things and most of the time they turn out great! Anyway, Rod and I went to their house yesterday too. We went to a wedding of a friend of mine from high school. It was a very nice wedding and really fast. After the reception we went back to my parents' house. Then we went to visit one of my roommates from college and her kitties (their not kittens anymore). I really enjoyed it. It dawned on me yesterday that Rod and my wedding was 1 year and 2 weeks from then. That sounds like a long time, but I know it is going to go by really fast. Our 5 year anniversary is coming up. I can't believe it has been that long. I was really excited then I found out Rod is going to be in New York for work on our anniversary. They are probably staying in a really nice hotel in Times Square. I really want to go with him, but I have class on Monday and then I doubt I could get off of work since I have taken so much time off of work lately and I have a major deadline at the end of the month. It would be so cool if I could go with him to New York. I told him he would have to take me back. Oh well, I guess you just live with those things. Well, it's almost 10 and I need to get to bed. I have class all day tomorrow and I need to stay awake. I promise to update this more often! TTYL. Have a good night all! :)